Chasing Perfection ...

Just letting go means a lot of different things to different people. For me this morning, perhaps it means letting go of being so critical of myself....those expectations that keep us locked into the perfection zone. Do you worry about "measuring up"? I know that I do.

Today, my measurements did not meet my expectations. Now they weren't extreme increases. But nonetheless, my brain is trying to take over this activity and pour vinegar on my results. It's just one day...but when you want something so badly with all your heart... sometimes the brain goes beyond reason.

So it's time to take my focus off of this mornings results (which I will do when I'm done writing this blog) and focus on the things that are really important in my life. My family. My hobbies--my garden, fishing, reading. The beauty that Nature gives us everyday if we will just seek it with an open heart.

HCG Results
I didn't post yesterday's results as I felt like I was hen-pecking. But maybe it had more to do with sharing them today. Today's results resulted in a ever, so slight weight gain. And to my horror....a gain back on my HIPS! Now mind ya....they weren't BIG gains. But the brain is a funny thing. It can either psych you out or calm you ...but your Spirit is always in control. Sometimes, you just have to let your brain know that!

Day 10
Down to 198.2--the doctor said that the weight would probably come off at a slower rate after the first week. So I'm prepared for this.

Lost another quarter inch for a total of 12 inches. I've added a couple of measurements into my formula to track more in alignment of what my doctor records. I'm taking more measurements because of the calculations I do for Percent Body Fat and Percent Muscle. My BMI has dropped to an even 33.

Day 11
Holy crap Batman! What happened? Ok ...ok...OKKKKKK...I gained ONLY .4 pounds...yup...that's right POINT FOUR POUNDS. That really isn't significant. But I was really LIKING that feeling of seeing the numbers go DOWN for heaven's sake. Another reason I generally don't advocate stepping on the scale everyday. Weight will fluctuate. But for the purposes of this protocol, I have to weigh myself everyday.

The real kicker for me today (like teeth jarring kick) was that I added inches back to my HIPS. *GASP* That one really hurt!

Interestingly, I'm feeling a bit bloated today. At first I thought it was something I ate, like beef (which I'm technically supposed to avoid according to my blood type). But it isn't that. Maybe it's hormonal? Could be. I am also looking at a long string of days with subdued elimination. It could be that my body is exhibiting inflammation due to this. I will definitely need to follow up with my doc about this on Wednesday as well as eat some greens today. I mean REAL greens, such as beet greens, collard greens, spinach. Dark leafy greens.

Another interesting point is that my BMI did not increase, and my body fat and muscle percentages actually decreased. You know what they say about statistics!

Well, tomorrow is another day. Today, we let go of perfection. Tomorrow....let's hope for the hips!